Showing posts from March, 2018

Good Friday

"And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, He gave up his spirit. At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split."

Matthew 27:50-51

It's Good Friday. I say this every year but the name seems almost a mockery of what it represents. Indeed, Sunday is coming and that takes on a whole new level of reflection. As I think on the significance of this day and the suffering that led to the empty tomb, I cannot separate the grief my heart feels alongside overwhelming gratitude.

You gave up Your life. You took my place. I recognize the price You paid and yet I could never fully understand what it truly cost You.

Was I really worth it?

I've asked myself that question so many times. I know You know because I've asked You the same question even more. Was I worth it to You?

I grapple with my value too often and then I suffer my own guilt over how I diminish Your love for me. You must need me to realize Y…

Pummy Yummy YUCK!

We all know I love pumpkin EVERYTHING. The craving usually starts in September and thankfully its growing popularity makes it easier to find even earlier each year. The looming forecast of snow had me planning a menu full of comfort foods and that meant pumpkin chocolate chip muffins. Yes, I know it's March but I also know my family loves them and I hadn't made them in awhile. I whipped up a batch of the super-easy recipe and put them in the oven. I decided to make extra so I could send some along with the meal I was preparing for another family. I don't want to brag but...people have raved about my pumpkin muffins so I figured why not make extra?!

I admit I sampled one of the mini muffins and my daughter sampled about 4 of them and had the chocolate evidence all over her face. When it came time for breakfast this morning, I knew the perfect treat for our lazy snow day would be my pumpkin chocolate chip muffins so I filled up a plate and took them to my kiddos.

I took one…

Nothing Is Impossible 

It was a special Sunday. We brought the kids into first service with us. Violet is accustomed to coming in to "sing and clap" and that she does. I can't describe the joy I have in knowing she's already learning to worship.

Just as we sang, "I believe You're my healer. I believe You are all I need," I felt the emotions overtaking me. I put my hand on my son and claimed it on his behalf. The struggles he faces, the journey he's on, it's not often things are ever simple with or for him. "I believe You're my portion. I believe You're more than enough for me. Jesus, You're all I need." Just then I felt a nudge on my waist and looked down to see him looking up at me. "I love you, mom," he said. I couldn't hold back any longer. The tears flowed as I raised my hand toward the heavens as if claiming God Himself to be all I need even with what seems impossible.

"Nothing is impossible for You, nothing is impossible.

Pacifier Wars

I learned an important lesson in parenting this week. It all started with a meltdown when we left the house and forgot the beloved "pappy" (pacifier). I knew we needed to help her kick the habit but after that incident I felt strongly about it being time. So Monday I set out to limit the beloved object to just bedtime. Admittedly that day was tough. There were multiple meltdowns, 30 minutes of crying fits, and a whole lot of reassurance - and then there was her episodes! Just kidding. I did my best to distract her, took her to the park, we played, we laughed, she ate a lollipop, and then we got home and she wanted her pappy. More crying. More fits. More battling of wills and then...daddy came home.
She was certain she could convince her daddy to give in and give her the pappy. Thankfully we had gone into this as a united front. The drama. Oh, the drama. She's a girl and more importantly, she's a daddy's girl.

I watched her vascillate between distraction and obse…